My Natural  State

My natural state is not bliss. Joy is not more spiritual than pain or fear.

They all come from the same place.

To try to stay in bliss, is to deny or run away from the other emotions.

Life would get pretty boring if that was all there was.

There are teachers that will tell you that bliss is your natural state, even your birthright. This, of course, implies that if you are not in bliss, you are doing something wrong.

I have had to let that go.

States, by their very nature, change and must change.

The only thing better than an occasional experience of bliss is a full time relationship with the source of bliss.

Losing a child or a love or a job hurts.

Fear is no fun.

What do I do when I feel hurt or afraid?

Usually, I judge myself and commence on a rigorous plan of action to change the way I feel.

Here’s a new idea, just feel the way I feel. All the way to the core. No more running or denying. Just drop or dive into this emotion I’ve been trying to avoid.

This is revolutionary stuff. This is facing the dragon, putting my head in the lion’s mouth, jumping off the cliff. This is uncharted territory. New behavior. Life changing stuff.

Hurt is not what I thought it was, neither is fear.

You have to find out for yourself.

What’s on the other side of hurt and fear?

Hurt and fear can take me to where I have always wanted to go.

And I thought they were the problem.

My natural state is whatever state I’m in.

Now, realizing that relationship, this is as natural as falling off a log. Just stop whatever I am doing to get something I think is lacking or to fix something that I think is broken and just for a split second to experience the fullness and perfection underlying all these states. That’s freedom.

There are some who would say the stateless state is bliss.
I have to start wherever I find myself.